I had my fourth and final baby at the same age I planned to have my first, 28.
At least as far as I know it is my last baby.
My husband and I have taken permanent precautions against having more children, but we both know there is no stopping the will of God. We have since discussed if it happened that we had another, how we might feel about it. I would prefer not to have any more from my perspective now of having four children under seven years old.
But I know with every fiber of my being, “For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, and My thoughts than your thoughts.” (Is. 55:9)
It is funny how God still uses them to bring me to the end of myself. To think, I thought one newborn was hard! Everyday I have to surrender my will to God’s and surrender myself to His Spirit to love, teach, guide and discipline my children the way He would have me.
My way still does not work out well. Surrendered, He has led me to do great things; to educate them at home, love them the way I should, to show them that following Him is life. Since shortly after that first Bible study, six years ago, I have been discipling and encouraging other young moms to do the same.
Even while writing this I was interrupted to rock my youngest, Gabriel, back to sleep. I thanked God for the opportunity to look at him and kiss him. I enjoy nothing in the world more than kissing a squishy baby arm!
I have a feeling God feels the same way about us!
“The LORD your God in your midst,
The Mighty One, will save;
He will rejoice over you with gladness,
He will quiet you with your love,
He will rejoice over you with singing.” (Zeph. 3:17)
